There isn't really much reason for me to go without a table - I mean, I guess it'd be pretty cool to meet some of the Portal fandom people if any of them are going? But finding people in a crowd of that size seems like a tall task. On top of paying the entry fee.
Sooo I might scrap London plans and hop across the Atlantic to New York instead. Still all a bit in the air though. Just an idea I'm playing with.
I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm a bit relieved about Expo. I'm not in the mood to drop any money on my comic at the moment; honestly I am not in the mood to even think about my comic at the moment and it's probably going on indefinite hiatus. I do genuinely apologise to those of you who read and enjoy it, and I feel guilty, but I don't see the point of doing something I don't enjoy in my spare time. Except, you know, things you have to do, like groceries and laundry and whatever. But the art I do in my spare time should be for fun or for study and I shouldn't feel so negatively about it.
I never really had much confidence in Alter - I always had huge problems trying to convince people to read it because, honestly, I don't think I would have read it myself. I don't want to spend money printing it or promoting it because I, myself, feel like it's a waste. So it's probably time to move on and see if I can come up with something I do have confidence in. Something that's me, not a derivative as hell generic mecha thing.
I'm in a strange period of my life right now. I'm rediscovering myself and, for lack of a better expression, doing the growing up I wasn't able to do when I was a teenager. The deciding and being proud of who I am bit.
I will, of course, keep drawing, even if I don't draw my comic anymore. I will always draw - drawing is me and I am drawing, that's one I'm certain about. And I hope some of you, even if not all, will continue to follow me as I continue exploring.









I'd love to go back to school and do Animation or something like that and then see if I can find work in the western industry but... there are just so many obstacles. All the major animation studios are in the US and I'm in Europe. All the good schools are in the US. On top of that I'm already £20k in debt from doing a science degree.
I'm honestly thinking about just teaching myself to animate.
Thanks again!