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Right, so, the other 10% chance thing happened; London Expo filled up before they reached my application in the queue for tables. Oh well.
There isn't really much reason for me to go without a table - I mean, I guess it'd be pretty cool to meet some of the Portal fandom people if any of them are going? But finding people in a crowd of that size seems like a tall task. On top of paying the entry fee.

Sooo I might scrap London plans and hop across the Atlantic to New York instead. Still all a bit in the air though. Just an idea I'm playing with.

I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm a bit relieved about Expo. I'm not in the mood to drop any money on my comic at the moment; honestly I am not in the mood to even think about my comic at the moment and it's probably going on indefinite hiatus. I do genuinely apologise to those of you who read and enjoy it, and I feel guilty, but I don't see the point of doing something I don't enjoy in my spare time. Except, you know, things you have to do, like groceries and laundry and whatever. But the art I do in my spare time should be for fun or for study and I shouldn't feel so negatively about it.

I never really had much confidence in Alter - I always had huge problems trying to convince people to read it because, honestly, I don't think I would have read it myself. I don't want to spend money printing it or promoting it because I, myself, feel like it's a waste. So it's probably time to move on and see if I can come up with something I do have confidence in. Something that's me, not a derivative as hell generic mecha thing.

I'm in a strange period of my life right now. I'm rediscovering myself and, for lack of a better expression, doing the growing up I wasn't able to do when I was a teenager. The deciding and being proud of who I am bit.

I will, of course, keep drawing, even if I don't draw my comic anymore. I will always draw - drawing is me and I am drawing, that's one I'm certain about. And I hope some of you, even if not all, will continue to follow me as I continue exploring. :) Cheers!
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=mayshing Apr 10, 2012  Professional Filmographer
o.o I am late, wait, u are dropping Alter???? Nuuuuuu >.<
Oh well it's your choice I guess.
I had that moment with Edepth but... everyone had that moment with their production. ;_;
Make it or leave it, or redo it, no one can force an author to continue.
Best wishes on whatever you wish to do in the future, making new work, or new comics. :)
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~pinali Apr 10, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Yeah. The feeling was more like... I NEVER cared about these characters, and was just kidding myself and forcing myself to make an 'original work' because I think it's expected of me and I won't be taken seriously if I don't.

But now that I work freelance I don't want to be "working" (ie. forcing myself to do something I don't care about and don't even like) in my spare time too, and that's what it felt like... so I felt it was the best decision to move on and advance as an artist rather than stay stuck in that rut. And I think it's working so far.. =)

Thanks a lot. I'm glad I have people to support me whatever I do ^^
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=mayshing Apr 12, 2012  Professional Filmographer
:) Every artist have different routes best suited to them, I am glad you tried regardless, that's how a lot of ppl found your work.
Best wishes to your future work/jobs. ^^
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:iconpguzmanos:
Hey Pinali,

I was just about to tell you nice things to motivate you to continue Alter and then I see this entry.

I like the twists you put into Alter but the mechs themselves weren't that appealing to me. It's difficult for me to fully empathize with the main character, I can't even recall his name. Though I surely enjoyed the plot. The quality of the pages are great for something that's free to read at MM.net. It's depressing to hear it didn't go well with MM.net, add to that I'm actually trying to tell everyone about the website :|

Doing something you don't like, and doesn't pay isn't nice at all. I'm sure you'll arrive someplace great. Cheers!
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~pinali Mar 21, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Hey there, thanks for the comment.

I 100% agree with you about the mech designs and the main character - those were two of the many, many things that were seriously bothering me about the whole thing. I wasn't in a great place when I began the project - I rushed into it without forethought - and by the time I realised my mistakes, it was too late. It's not really salvageable.
I'm just going to take what I learned from the whole thing and put it into whatever I do next. Keep moving forwards!

Thanks again. =)
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:iconpguzmanos:
Still it was one of the great reads on the site :D
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:iconreaperfox:
Just a random comment from a stranger who found your DA gallery and is promptly about to watch you - there's no way you can miss the Portal folks at Expo. They hang out with the Valve group which is pretty much the largest meetup (and has their own facebook page :P), which is a huge sea of orange, white, red and blue. And zombies.

Sucks a lot about your table, I didn't realise they filled up that fast :( I've never actually had a proper comic for sale there, just a small home printed demo copy of my webcomic in print form. I mainly sell fanart junk and original sketches. :P Just an fyi for if you wanted a table next time but weren't sure if you'd get a comic sorted out in time.

Anyway, sorry to butt in! I love your stuff, just stumbled across this gallery from a comment you made on someone else's Portal pic, I think. Hi :)
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~pinali Mar 16, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Haha, yeah, good point. I'm not sure I want to drop the money on going along (flying over from France where I live at the moment gets kinda pricey) but it's really tempting!

Yeah, I was shocked how fast they filled up too. I had one last year though. I've decided I'm stopping my webcomic, so if I get a table for another show then I'll probably just do prints/fanart and on the spot sketch commissions, yeah. =)

Nooo you're not butting in at all! <3 I love meeting new people hehe. Thanks so much for the watch/comment/favs!
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:iconalexander-syros:
Well done being honest with yourself! Takes some courage and resolve. You're on the right track ;)
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~pinali Mar 5, 2012  Professional Digital Artist
Haha, yeah. Being honest with myself, definitely something I've been working on recently. Cheers mate!
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